Happy 17th Birthday, Sam!!
This was 17 years ago when I first met Sam. I looked at him and said, “I’ve been waiting for you for so long.” Then I feel asleep due to the morphine they were pumping into me after my “emergency” c-section.
Sam made me a first time mom (Jack expanded my mom abilities!) Sam has taught me many lessons. He has taught me to be selfless. He made me give up sleep. I love seeing the world and things that I have experienced, through his eyes, where it is new. I now stand for and against things due to Sam. I never understood Mama Bear, until I had Sam.
One of my favorite songs is by Brandie Carlisle called The Mother which lyrics hit it on point to being and becoming a mom. The lyrics in bold are ones that touched me thinking about Sam, especially the ones in red.
You’re tethered to another and you’re worried all the time
You always knew the melody but you never heard it rhyme
She made me love the morning, she’s a holiday at sea
The New York streets are busy as they always used to be
But I am the mother of Evangeline
She broke a thousand heirlooms I was never meant to keep
She filled my life with color, canceled plans, and trashed my car
But none of that was ever who we are
I’ll hold you while you’re sleeping and I wish that I could go
All my rowdy friends are out accomplishing their dreams
But I am the mother of Evangeline
And they still enjoy their evenings with the skeptics and the wine
Oh, but all the wonders I have seen, I will see a second time
From inside of the ages through your eyes
The world has stood against us, made us mean to fight for you
And when we chose your name we knew that you’d fight the power too